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A man can no more diminish God’s glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word, ‘darkness’ on the walls of his cell. _c.s. lewis

Posts Tagged ‘frail’


Posted by abramjanson on April 11, 2009

I’m a very relational human being. I enjoy people… in all our weirdness and awkwardness and failures and successes… I think people are fascinating.  Other people are essential to my life… they are my sustenance. Granted… don’t get me wrong… I love being by my self… I do… But I thrive on people.  


Community is my life bread. 


Community is great (it’s essential to healthy lives and true faith)… In moderation.  


community |kəˈmyoōnitē|noun ( pl. -ties)

a particular area or place considered together with its inhabitants, esp. in the context of social values and responsibilities;  a feeling of fellowship with others, as a result of sharing common attitudes, interests, and goals.


There is a stark difference, however, between true community and faulty misrepresentations of a beautiful thing.  I’ve been apart of some incredible communities in my short life already… but I’ve experienced some of the worst lies in human history as well. That, unfortunately, is another topic for another day.


All too often, I trade in community, true or more then not faulted, for single personal relationship with the Creator.  I place people in my life that take up too much time… leaving myself nothing.  


I’m more comfortable in the noise. Silence scares the hell out of me. 


Should I not be more content outside of community in the silence of an intimate relationship then in the noise?  Noise=distraction.  It’s easy.  Here lies the biggest struggle of my life.  Replacing people and things for a single constant truth.  One of my brothers from the land of rafting and whitewater, Brandon Brewer, said something so profound in a blog of his: 

“I’m awkwardly feeling uncomfortable here and wanting to make some changes in my life. Just been seeping into apathy in my walk and relationships, so keep me in your prayers I guess, I’m chasing things that have no treasure.”

I get chills every time I read the last seven words of that statement… this statement has spoken so much truth into my life.  In fact, I hate it. I hate how perfect those last seven words sum up my life.  I hate it.

Brewha left us with this as well: “I miss community and miss you guys. I pray that your lives are unsatisfied in the world but solely dependent on the Lord and His grace. I also pray that you are persecuted… otherwise it’s obvious the devil has no threat. Stay consistent and stay in pursuit.” 


I hope this was not rambling… but encouragement. Piercing questions welcome. Be blessed.

Traveling mercies.

“There is only one relationship that matters, and that is your personal relationship to a personal redeemer and Lord. Let everything else go, but maintain that at all costs, and God will fulfill His purpose through your life.” Oswald Chambers



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moving over.

Posted by abramjanson on February 12, 2009

i am simply giving this a shot. new venue. new found blogging spirit. check back often.p7050317_21



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